Livin' the life

I moved into a new place in Queen Anne and I must admit, it's pretty much awesome. Two blocks from work which means a lot less driving. Here's what the new place has to offer that the old place was lacking.

-Ridiculously close to work
-1 1/2 blocks from a grocery store
-2 blocks from drug store
-Tons of restaurants
-Tons of randoms
-Tons of joy

To give you an idea of how flippin' sweet the new set up here's my walk to work.

Out my front door at 8:27. I walk down the street to cross my apartments cross streets. Directly at 10 o'clock I can see the Space Needle tower over me. In the distance I can see the top of the Columbia Tower, the tallest building in Seattle. So good. I walk down the block and cross over another street with a lot of choice restaurants and a Radio Shack in case I'm ever in need. Down the next block is a danish bakery est. in 1965, that's what it's window claims anyway. The fresh baked pastries smell so incredible every single morning. Maybe one day I'll slip in for a treat. Next to it is an old fashion barber shop, and then a key making place which I've already visited (to make extra keys for the apartment). Then, work. I'm sitting at my desk at exactly 8:30. Absolutely perfect.

What I'll miss about my Greenlake house.

-Free laundry
-Parking
-My roommates craziness, it actually was mildly entertaining
-...okay I have nothing else

In addition I've joined weight watchers and I'm in my third week. This week I've lost 3.2 pounds. Brings me down about 6 lbs. I'm pushing for another 10 or so and then I think I'll be okay. My clothes are already getting kinda baggy and as much as I'd love to go shopping for a bunch of new clothes....I don't have the funding yet.

House warming party tomorrow night. I don't have a couch. People will enjoy my soft, sultry carpet. Meh.

Sunday is the boyfriend's birthday.

Next week a PRSSA buddy is in town for the weekend. We're going to Portland for the friend Thanksgiving. I'm really excited. A friend from highschool moved to Portland this last week and it will be so nice to see her. Help get her settled in her new space and introduce her to friends. Give her the same kindness that was given to me when I first arrived here.

Three days later I'll be in Boston for Thanksgiving. Chris is coming. So good to see family. I can't wait to see my cousins and aunts and uncles. Not my mom and brothers, but I'll see them a month later. I hope. Anyone want to fund me flying home? Now accepting donations.

Interesting perspective

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Hm, I think I'll look into that.

It's been awhile.

Good morning....sorry it's been awhile. I'd like to say that there have been massive changes in my life since I spoke with you three months ago, but that's only partially true...mostly more of the same. To update you on the monotony of my life since then, however, would take awhile...so I'll skip to the good parts.

Neil came to visit the beginning of August and it was nice to have him here. First time to see him since he left for Dijibouti last August, so it was good to catch up and show him my Seattle..he loved it I think.

I went home right after that for a week. So, so good to be home. I promised myself rest but I didn't get any, saw some good friends and had an epiphany -- most of my friends there will never be the same kind of friends again. People I was close to there, I don't know anymore and they don't know me. But, that's okay. I suppose it's a part of growing and finding myself, or something. Who the heck knows. Anyway, I got a lot of sweet tea, some cheese biscuits and Surin so it worked out.

It's been a whirlwind since then. I turned 23. Broke a heart. Fell in love. Brother is here from Japan. Going to Boston for Thanksgiving. PRSA. Law School? Moving...tomorrow.

I'll dive deeper into my inner being in the next entry...now that we're caught up.

I had my review today, for the most part pretty positive. I'm feeling good about it and looking forward to what my future holds. I'll give you updates as they occur.

I had a wonderful weekend, probably one of the best I've had in awhile. Patrick and Chris went with me and Do to the Pike Market on Saturday and then we spent the afternoon playing frisbee at GasWorks, my favorite park in all of Seattle.

Ahhh, so beautiful.

Saturday night a group of us went out for Father's birthday. We hung out in Fremont at the Ballroom for most of the night. It's always fun to go out and dance for a bit.

This is part of the group: Alex, Father, Kenny, Chirag, Me, Kaylee and Chris

Good times.

Sunday we woke up and all went rafting down the Snoqualmie River. Such a good time. The rapids were a little intense and it was freezing freaking cold but totally worth it.

All and all a pretty good weekend. I hope this week starts shaping up...

It's a nice day for a walk..

We had a half day at work today. So amazing. I went in and worked on a couple client needs, got an e-mail from Kiry and then left. It was such an beautiful day outside, too, I'm glad I didn't have to stay in doors. I went down to the gym and ran for awhile, walked around Queen Anne...then came home and talked with my roommate, it was good to see him again. He's been spending most of his time working and with his girlfriend...not cooking for me like he should be. Hmph. Nah, I'm happy for him.

Then I took a nap. I can't remember the last time I took a nap. I probably won't be spending an exceptional amount of time with Patrick and Chris tonight, I think they're kinda tired after we spent last night at the Garage bowling (I bowled a 135, yo!), Blue C Sushi (conveyer belt sushi) and Kerry Park.

Forth is tomorrow and I'm actually feeling a little patriotic. Not sure what that is about, I'm sure it's a feeling that will pass in time.

This girl is back in town.

You thought I had gone MIA, unfortunately, no that's not the case. I have been very busy and it doesn't appear that things are going to slow down any time soon. I'm actually looking forward to this summer, like I said back in April, summer is going to be great. It already has been.

I'd like to apologize for not being on top of the blogosphere but I will get back in the game, I want to keep you dear readers in touch with my exciting day to day.

Recappin' the past:

Since I last spoke with you I had a visitor, Brett, came in town. It was great to have him here, we got to Seattle it up. He's talking about coming back sometime soon. Hopefully it is a possibility.

Scott was also in town at the beginning of May and it was nice to have him here. We went to Leavenworth which is probably the coolest place, EVER. It is a Bavarian town in the middle of no where Washington - that's right folks, it's Bavarian by CITY LAW. All store fronts look Bavarian, it's wonderful. I am definitely making place to go back for Oktoberfest. Whoop, whoop.

I also made a trip to NYC to visit Scott and had a good time. NYC is just one of those places you love to be in. Such a wonderful vibe. It's pperrrrffeeecct.

Last week I got to go the Red Sox/Mariners games and regardless of the sweet things getting swept, I had such an amazing time. Baseball games are just incredible - the people, the antagonizing fans, the spirit, the smells, the sun. I absolutely love it. I also was on MLBTV a few times during the game, I can't say I blame them for picking me out of the crowd, I mean it is my face and all. Ha.

Work is going really well. Busy but great. I'm really feeling competent at my job and I think I'm doing a pretty good job of it. We will see once I have my review next week if my boss feels the same :) But in the 4 1/2 months I have been here, I think I've covered a lot of ground and learned a tremendous about myself. I think that's what's important. What's even more important is that I love my career self. I rock.

Now Patrick and Chris are in town for the week and I'm looking forward to showing them Seattle's digs. We went to Chinook's last night for dinner (a restaurant in Fisherman Terminal) and I'm not sure if we have much on the agenda for tonight. Definitely going to try to loop them into some pretty great Fourth of July plans. I'll let you know.

Here's the score for the rest of the summer:

Patrick/Chris here until July 9

Scott here from July 8 - 24, I think?

Portland for Skull Island Fiesta July 20-22

My 15 mile relay July 28

Maybe a friend in town July 27-29

Red Sox and Zach Aug 3-5

Neil/Antonia in town Aug 9 - 14

Home to Mom and a glass full of sweet tea Aug 15-20* I think

Yup, like I said, it's going to be a great summer.

On the 12th day since my blog...my true love gave to me....flowers..

Okay, so it's been awhile. A long while. I've been busy. Really really busy. And when I'm not working, I'm sleeping or running or talking to Scott or something random. I guess it's hard to put into words what is going on when there is nothing worth relaying, at least not in my daily happenings in Seattle. I don't know, I've been avoiding everything in my life. I need to get over that super quick it is no bueno.

Scott sent me flowers at work the other day, they're beautiful. They have hot pink gerber daisies, tulips and roses - I like them a lot. It will be wonderful to have him here in a couple weeks, just to hang out and enjoy Seattle together. Go to my formal : ) Good times.

Last weekend was wonderful. I went to B & O for brunch with Kim P (she was on PRSSA's National Committee in 2003) and we walked around Capitol Hill checking out vintage shops. We also went to Daily Candy www.dailycandy.com and I bought two super cute dresses. One which I plan to wear for formal. So precious. We also went to Fredmont's market place and just had a great time. Yay.

I wish I could say something monumental was going on here, it's sunny. That's good news.


I'll write when I'm inspired again.

Peace out homeslices.

No more summer camp

My mom told me when I moved here initially to pretend like I was going away to summer camp. Going to check things out, have some fun in the sun and then head back home. Today, I've been here two months. I think that ends my stint at "summer camp." Seasons are changing, and reality is settling. I'm surprisingly okay.

Work is good. Busy, but good. I enjoy my job, I enjoy the environment, I enjoy my clients. It's good. I think that is helping ease the transition a lot quicker. Also, I made some great friends while away at summer camp. You always do. It's those friends that you carry with you into the start of each school year. I'm taking a few with me. I spent this weekend with Kenny on Friday night at a sorority function and then Friday late night with Travis, Chirag and some girls from my sorority. Saturday morning I began with my sorority's centennial celebration and then hung out with the guys and Kaylee at an Indian (dot, not feather) dance competition. It was pretty freaking amazing. I wish I had the ability to dance in such beautiful motion. We went to the after party at EMP and danced some and that was a wonderful time. It was a great summer end bash. I'm looking forward to the next couple months, fall is my favorite time of year, anyway.

Just water under the bridge...or a troll..whatever.

Seattle wouldn't be complete without the Fredmont Troll. Troll you ask? Yes, Troll. It's a big giant Troll made out of concrete holding a real VW Beetle in his hand (which you can't see...) under the Fredmont Bridge. It's amazing. I L-O-V-E it. It was also filmed in 10 Things I Hate About You, incase you're interested. Anyway, that's just a Troll under a bridge.

I'll be the first to admit I've never been the outdoors type. I always have enjoyed the great outdoors, and always wished I was more inclined to spend a lot of time in them, but I confess I always preferred the nice air conditioned in doors. Seattle has changed that. The song "The Outdoor Type" by the Lemonheads is no longer about me...used to be though. Still a good song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0QczF5hvgos

I could go on for days about how beautiful it is here. It's every where you turn. There's another cherry blossom tree blooming, another snow capped mountain, another lake. Outdoors are where it's at.

I live down the street from a lake, it's called Greenlake. I've been running around it lately and today as I was running I was looking across the lake in complete awe of it's sheer magnitude and beauty. How freaking amazing is it that I live only a few blocks away from such sheer glory.
Everyday I realize what a genius I was in moving here. I couldn't fathom my life without experiencing this...it's heavenly.

So my angst, my hatred, my fear, my sorrow....I left it where it belongs. It's all under the bridge...with the troll.

Oy Vey!

Life is starting to pile up quick. I'm trying to sort through everything but it's coming with some difficulty. I made a huge "To Do" list today which I think might help expedite the process. We shall see. One can only hope. Otherwise I'm going to have a panic attack and that would be pleasing to.....no one.

Hm.

I thought you should all know things I love about Seattle and things I miss about home. Okay, here's the list.

Reasons why I <3 Seattle:

• Every morning I wake up to the snow covered mountains outside my window
• On my way to work I pass over the Ballard Bridge, home to the locks (where the salt water changes to fresh and where the salmon run upstream) and home to boats in mass quantities...all lovely.
• I am in a beautiful neighborhood next to Greenlake, a perfect area for running and spending time outdoors
• I haven't met a person yet that isn't in love with this city. I'm slowly falling....
• It's accessible. While Seattle is definitely a city, I still can get around with relative ease
• There is so much left to explore. I love that there is so much unknown to me....
• I've made friends, great friends. I have no idea how I was blessed with such a knack for making friends. Anyway, they're all wonderful and giving individuals.
• My house is cute. My roommate bakes. How can you not love a roommate who bakes me carrot cakes in his spare time? He's amazing.

Reasons Why I <3 Alabama:

• Family. Obviously no real surprise there. I miss them tremendously.
• Friends. My best friends. All such wonderful support throughout this entire process. I guess I just miss hugging them and random adventures. So good.
• Sweet Tea, Southern Hospitality. Those go hand and hand. I've been a lot of places and nothing compares to Southern charm. Strange, but true.
• My niche. Before I moved I felt like I had found a perfect groove for myself. Making friends, getting to really know the city. Experiencing Birmingham for truly the first time in my life.
• Surin West. Sushi, enough said.
• Southside/Highland. I really just love that area. Close to my heart. Rojo days = Bomb.com

I guess it's a relief to know that there is such great things in the world. You can find them everywhere. Some are right there above the surface...like the Olympic Mountains outside my window...some you have to look for. I intend to keep digging until maybe I uncover something deeper...maybe I uncover a new part of me.

Seattle is for lovers...

There is something about this city that just makes people couple up.

I don't know what it is, but you can feel it. Love. In the air. Everyone talking about their significant others and all the places they go together. They all sound fab-o. I'm looking forward to exploring Golden Gardens and random bits of Washington State....ooo and the vineyards. Those will be lovely.

It's been sunny here the past couple days. It makes you feel alive. The second the sun hits your skin you soak it in...in the words of my highschool principal, "like a giant car wash sponge." That however was in a different context all together when he said to me "Alright, Miss Jessica, get to class and soak up lots of knowledge like a giant car wash sponge." Hah, that makes me giggle. Good times.

Rhett is sending me house warming items. I can't wait to see what he sent my way. I'm pretty sure one is a slow cooker since I told him my mom sent me an awesome slow cooker recipe book and I need an awesome new slow cooker. I'm not sure why I am so lucky to have so many friends that want to take care of me. It is amazing.

Next few weeks are going to be full of muy exciting festivities to keep me occupied and out of trouble....the agenda is as follows...just so you can know where I am and what I'm doing at all times.

This weekend: Centennial Event of my sorority at the university here. Should be a joyous occasion. Lots of alumna to meet and such.

Next weekend: Rufus Wainwright will be h-e-r-e. Need I say more? You can look at him yourself at www.rufuswainwright.com. So beautiful. Yay.

Weekend after: Tentatively NYC. We're still discussing/figuring out if it is possible. I'm crossing my fingers, though. I really would love to go!

Cinco De Mayo weekend: Seattle Art Museum reopens. No I don't have tickets...but I am volunteering :) 9 p.m. - 1 a.m. Yay. I get to go for f-r-e-e!

May 11-13: Carolyn graduates. Must be in Alabama then. Milo's Famous Sweet Tea, here I come. Oh and Mom. Hi Mom. :)

May 13-26ish?: Scott will be in town. That will include lots of good times including a formal at the EMP. But you already knew that. Yay!

May 25-28: Brett is coming to visit. Good times.

Gah, this is going to be the BEST SUMMER EVER. At least I'm going to try my best to make it that way.

Happy Easter.

My life is pure insanity. I'm not going to lie. It is a continued pile of chaos. I'm still hoping that one day I'll sort through it. I've done a little bit of sorting so I have some time to post. Sorry about the delay.

Work has been extraordinarily busy since I returned from Nashville. With almost everyone out of the office I was trying to keep up with the work load and stay on top of everyone's in house projects. I had a pretty good time doing it and feel pretty accomplished for the week which is definitely a good thing. There were a few communication issues but all seem to be working themselves out and I hope to have a fresh start tomorrow. We shall see.

As far as personal, I'm doing pretty well. My cousin, Bill, came in this weekend from Rhode Island to hang out and spend a little time in Seattle. We had a pretty good time putzing around in the beautiful outdoors. Friday was absolutely gorgeous. We spent a lot of it walking around Olympic Sculpture Park which is part of the Seattle Arts Museum (SAM) and the Seattle Center. A little bit of time in the Experience Music Project www.emplive.org (where I'm going to my sorority's formal in May with Scotty, yay!). We didn't get to go into the Sci-Fi Museum but I defintely am going to make the trek there ASAP.

We also hiked Snoqualmie Falls, I didn't get to hike it last time I went with Lisa. It was quite the outdoor pursuit and I'm all kinds of sore today. Ow.

Last night we found the most fantastic dive bar, EVER, in Belltown called "Shorty's Coney Island." I can't even describe....pin ball machines, bartenders servicing up chili cheese dogs (yes they make them behind the bar) with whiskey sours...it was amazing. Not that I like chili cheese dogs or whiskey sours. Pin ball is good though.

Today we wrapped things up with some dim sum in the International District. All and all I had a pretty great time. He's definitely revitalized my spirits. I needed it.

When he left today, though, I couldn't help but feel a bit down. First holiday being away from home as an adult and I don't like it. I miss my family much. I'm going home May 11, though, for Carolyn's graduation so I'll spend some time with mi madre then. Can't wait.

I'm going to go watch some P&P and feel a little bit better about things. I'm going to try to start fresh and 86 my self pity attitude. Call it a rebirth. It is Easter, after all.

Pink Lemonade

I'm sorry I've been slacking my writing. It's mostly been that there is so much to talk about I don't even know where to begin. I figured silence may be the best way to overcome the anxiety of getting through so much material. I don't want to do that anymore. I've done that my entire life. Ignore things when they start to seem overwhelming..they'll go away...eventually.

....not that they ever do.

Nashville. Nashville was amazing. I saw Divya for .5 seconds. I loved it. I saw Robert for about .9 seconds. It was good to see him. Very Robert like. Of course seeing the Committee is always the best part. I'm so proud to be part of something so wonderful. To be touched by 9 of the most incredible people I will ever know. I don't think I could ever really explain how lucky I really am.

Kim and me. She's my comfort in every storm. Love her.

Here's a few pictures from the week. Enjoy.

1: Practicing our skit. We're all a bunch of Debbie Downers.

2: Typical National Committee.

3: Jeneen (most incredible woman in the entire world and makes the world of PRSSA go 'round), Kim, and me.

4: Me, Scotty :), Kim and Papa Kev. We're sitting with kings, ladies and gentleman. PRSSA Kings.

The Times They Are A Changin'

Nashville was incredible. New National Committee elected. Out with the old. In with the new. Incoming Vice President of Chapter Development is going to totally show me up. Good, my position really needs that. I haven't contributed as much as I should have and I regret that. Learn and move forward.

I don't feel well. Over tired from travel. I should probably rest. More later. Lots and lots later.....work...sleep....must....go.

Sweet tea and sunshine...

Tomorrow I'll be in Nashville. I never thought trekking to the South East could be so exciting. I am absolutely pumped about it though. Endless sweet tea and sunshine....warmth. Home.

Unfortunately all I really have time for this morning is giving you a few pictures from the weekend. Pictures say a thousand words anyway so I really don't need to do much talking.
Here's another picture of me and Lisa on her recent visit. Good times.

Me and my buddy, Travis, on St. Patrick's Day in a bar in Fremont. Good times.

My look of disdain makes me giggle. I'm not sure why I'm giving Chirag such a look of death.

Look, I don't really hate Chirag. He's a funny guy. Yes, I'm wearing a Washington State hoodie. They're switching me over up here. Curses.

Gotta run.

It's a small world after all...

It is weird how small the world is. I guess I've always known it, I've run into people I knew in foreign countries and in various parts of the United States and it always strikes you as strange. Six degree of separation. I can be comforted to know that I know someone, who knows someone that knows someone that knows someone that knows someone else that knows Johnny Depp. My that is comforting. Anyway, It didn't really occur how strange it is until this Saturday.

I was at a sports pub with a few of my friends watching the Washington State/Vandy game and sitting right next to this guy that I didn't know. As many of you know I start conversations with everyone. Just never know when I'll meet someone that is a degree closer to Johnny Depp. Anyway it was clear to both of us that we weren't interested in the game.

He says, "I don't care about this game at all."
"Nor do I," I said.
"I'm from Montana," he said.
"Ah, cool, I'm from Alabama."
"No way," he says, "I went to school in Alabama."
"Really?!" I said.
"Yeah, I went to UAB."
"No way, dude, I went to UAB."
"Were you in a sorority there?"
"Yeah, I was Alpha Xi Delta."
"Oh awesome, I was Pi Kappa Phi."

Turns out we know all the same people. Completely random. He graduated in 2005. I hung out with him yesterday and reminised about Alabama and sweet tea. We had a good time. It was sunny yesterday so we got to walk around Olympic Sculpture Park, Golden Gate, played some miniature golf...good times. It's almost like a small piece of home here with me. I think it will be nice to have a friend like that here.

Happiness is found within...

I've always hated being alone. Spending time with myself is something I've always dreaded and tried to avoid. That was until recently when I received some perspective.

I was told that I had to embrace and love being with myself. If I can't love spending time with myself then I certainly can't expect anyone else to. I'm working on that. I'm working on finding the things that I love about myself. I'm learning to find my own happiness.

I love my kindness. It is something I got from my mom and I always hated about her because it always resulted in her giving away my material things to someone whenever anyone said "Oh, I love Jessica's ______." And because she is giving and kind she'd always respond with "Oh, Jessica doesn't mind if you have it, do you Jess?" At the time I hated it. Now I realize that I'm the exact same way and I love it. Thanks, Mom.

I love my work ethic. I love to work, I always have. I love to stay busy and I love what I do. I'd like to think that I am a great leader, at least a considerate one. I got that from my father, he's always been a wonderful employer. He has the most admirable work ethic. I love that about myself. Thanks, Dad.

I love my wit. I've always been pretty quick with my responses and sarcasm. My family as a whole as pretty witty but I think that my brother, Jason, is by far the wittiest. I love that about us. I love that about me. I love that I have that. Thanks, Jason.

I love that I'm giving. I definitely have the southern hospitality and I love it. I always want to give more, to assure that everyone is okay and has everything that they need. My brother, Shawn, is the single most giving person I know. I love that my mom equates me to his generosity. I love that I have that. Thanks, Shawn.

Something I love that I think is all my own is my ability to adjust in seemingly awkward situations. I actually rarely feel uncomfortable in social situations. Almost never. I love that. I love that I make friends with anyone, everywhere. That my friends have always said to me "Jess, you have friends EVERYWHERE." I love that. I love that I am someone people want to be friends with.

I'm learning to love myself. Who I am. Where I am from. Where I'm going and who I will become....I'm learning that it isn't that bad to be alone.

Overcast in my mind..

I went to bed early last night. By early I mean 1 am. I'm not a good sleeper, I always wake up about 40 times during the night. It isn't loud in my house...its just loud in my head. Can't clear it, so much is going on. Too much to sort out. I hate that.

It's just going to take a little time for the sun to peak through, all I know is I can't wait to feel its warmth.

Rollercoasters are overrated

I remember my first rollercoaster ride in seventh grade. My uncles had attempted numerous times to make me ride them before, but with no success. It was on my 7th grade band trip that I was willing to take on "The Mindbender" at Six Flags Over Georgia...I only did it because my brother was there to hold my hand. He has always been able to comfort me. I'm so lucky to have my family.

While that is a memory I will always cherrish, the tossing and tumbling, the jerking and twirling, it is different when that becomes your life. 30 seconds has turned into a month. I have been in Seattle a month today.

It has been up and down, but constantly moving forward... it will get better. I'm assured constantly of that by my family. Holding my hand even thousands of miles away.

Yesterday was bad. I got a $35 parking ticket. I had a huge misunderstanding with Brian. I am overwhelmed at work. PRSSA National Assembly next week. Overwhelmed. 90 to nothing - until my cousin Bill called. He's coming to visit Easter weekend. That made things start moving upward last night. Bill's visit. Went for a jog around my neighborhood and I'm not going to lie, Greenlake is really cute. I think I'm going to love living there. My roommate is great. We talked last night. Made me feel a lot better. Talked to Jay, talked to Chris, talked to Scott, talked to Mom. Everyone is cheering for me to keep moving onward. So lucky.

Midnight sushi last night at Wasabi Sushi with Kenny, Chirag, Ryan, Kaylee, a co-worker and her boyfriend. Sushi = comfort food. I love it.

Today is going to be good though. This is definitely a moving upward day. I decided for myself. I have on my four-leaf clover shirt and I'm ready to roll...but if it does start moving down I'll still be alright because so many people are waiting to be there to hold my hand.

Everything you do has meaning....

...I'd like to think that I'm that introspective, that I think that deeply about everything. Trouble is...I don't.

How things are perceived I sometimes spend little to no time thinking about the reaction when you say something like that. I just don't. I'm sorry. I wish I could tell you otherwise...maybe you see it as insensitive. It isn't. It just wasn't thought out. That's all. Ignorance not insensitivity.

Do you have to let it linger...?

Dinner with Travis tonight. It was cool I got to walk around Capitol Hill for the first time. I also got to hit up Urban Outfitters which makes any dark day a lot brighter.

Work is picking up...a lot. I had 2 client meetings today and a brainstorming session and a ton of deadlines. I love it, it keeps me out of trouble. Mucho enjoymento.

I wish I had more inspiration, but I confess...I have none.

Good night.

Sorry Jay...

It's no Ministry but I really like this song...


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SGTDRztaCCw

Pictures.

Well as promised here are the pictures. I only have four, but whatever, take what you can get.


This is us in Pike's Place Flying Fish Market. We're next to a monk fish which has to be one of the most disgusting creatures I have ever seen in my life. But that's alright. It didn't discourage my continued consumption of delicious hazelnut latte from the original Starbucks.

I will be the first to admit that I'm a tremendous dork. In the Seattle underground.

We're in the underground www.undergroundtours.com hanging out by one of the store windows. Looks like we're standing in the rain.

Here is me and Lisa in Pioneer Square. Aw. Precious.

Let love in...

Let love in....that's a Goo Goo Dolls song. I think that's how I need to start living my life.

I've been filling my days with a lot of sorrow and "what ifs." What a waste of my time. Today I'm accepting circumstance. I'm living my life. I'm letting love in.

..Or at least I'm going to try.

It is difficult to be away from my friends as they have their senior spring breaks. I had a great spring break last year...Phoenix and then San Francisco. I won National Committee last year. Really couldn't ask for a better last spring break. Curb jealous. Kill envy. It isn't very becoming. Let love in.

I had a good night last night. Seattle Alumnae Board of Alpha Xi Delta hosted its monthly meeting and I was invited to attend. It is so incredible to see my sisters from so many walks of life - ages 22 to 70. I could not have predicted being part of something so incredible when I got here. They all have such love for the sisterhood. It means so much to them. I was nominated for VP of PR and Social Chair. It is a two year term. I am going to love it. Let love in.

Tonight I'm going to spend some time at SPL (Seattle Public Library) and maybe do a bit of jogging. I think I might also try to master a tuna melt tonight. My mom makes the best ones. I'll try to recreate and curl up with a good book. Me night tonight. Let my own love in.

...Or at least I'm going to try.

P & P makes the world go 'round

Pride and Prejudice has always been my solution to feeling down. Since I'm feeling a bit down I thought I'd partake in some Jane Austin.


"You must know - surely you must know that it was all for you... I would have to tell you, you have bewitched me body and soul and I love and love and love you. And never wish to be parted from you from this day forward."-Mr. Darcy to Elizabeth in Pride & Prejudice

Michael always knows what's up

http://youtube.com/watch?v=NP2F0BmwBVw

Here I go being emo again. Be prepared.

Lisa's visit

It was incredible having Lisa here. So peaceful, exactly what I needed.

Friday night was well, ridiculous. We went and toured the University of Washington campus with one of my sorority sisters, Jill, which was a lovely walk. The campus is absolutely beautiful. We checked out this sushi place for dinner called Rain. It was pretty inexpensive and really really good sushi. I'm definitely going to make that a repeat restaurant. After that we went to Kel's an irish bar in Post Alley. We had a good time dancing around and mingling with some people. We both had a little bit too much to drink, but you live and learn. Never to do it again.

Saturday morning we got a bit of a late start but went to Pike's Place and walked around the market place. It was so fun just to walk around aimlessly. We had seafood gumbo for lunch, drank a latte from the original Starbucks and had a pastry from this amazing Russian place. Incredible'. We also went to Pioneer Square to take the Underground Tour www.undergroundtour.com. Good times.

Saturday night we dipped into Pesos for dinner which was full of beautiful guys, beautiful food and beautiful atmosphere. Lucky for me it is right by work so I can maybe go check out the fellas a bit more intensely on another outting. For sure.We relaxed for a bit and then went and had a late night dessert at 13 Coins www.13coins.com which is probably the weirdest restaurant I have EVER been in. It doesn't even begin to make sense. Expensive food open 24 hours a day. Weird. Fried ice cream was amazing, though.

Sunday we spent a little time walking around the International District and had dim sum for lunch and then headed up to Snoqualmie Falls www.snoqualmiefalls.com to check out its beauty. Very impressive waterfall. Def a romantic hotspot if you have someone to romance. Maybe if Brian comes to visit....hm.

Last night we went to dinner in Belltown and then headed over to the Garage www.garagebillards.com to bowl a little bit. Lisa, Kenny and I all won a game. Yay. I had the highest score...119 sucka.

She left today but I will see her in Nashville in two weeks. It was so great to have her here, though. So great. Pictures will post as soon as she puts them up because, well, I didn't take any.

I fail.

Work time.

It is going to be a great weekend.

Lisa got in late last night. I'm so excited that she's here. It is a bummer that I have to work today and can't spend the day with her. Dang it.

Travis is spending the day with her and I hope that works out alright...I don't see why it wouldn't.

I'm too distracted. Must work.

I hate songs in blogs. But I like this song.

Forgive this. I had to.



Artist:
Keith Urban
Album:
Love, Pain & the Whole Crazy Thing
Title:
Stupid BoyWell, she was precious like a flower
She grew wild, wild but innocent
A perfect prayer in a desperate hour
She was everything beautiful and different
Stupid boy, you can't fence that in
Stupid boy, it's like holding back the wind
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
Stupid boy, stupid boy
Oh
So what made you think you could take a life
And just push it push it around
I guess you build yourself up so high
You had to take her and break her down
She let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy
Oh, you always had to be right but now you've lost
The only thing that ever made you feel alive
Yeah, yeahWell, she let her heart and soul right in your hands
And you stole her every dream and you crushed her plans
es, ya did
She never even knew she had a choice and that's what happens
When the only voice she hears is telling her she can't
You stupid boy, oh, I'm the same old
Same old stupid boy
It took awhile for her to figure out she could run
But when she did, she was long goneLong gone, long gone
Ah, she's gone
Nobody's ever gonna love me like she loved me
And she loved me, she loved me
God please, just let her know
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
I'm sorry, I'm sorry
Baby, yeah, I'm down on my knees
She's never coming back to me

By the way...

...I never made it to Host. We were late. We went and shopped at IKEA instead. I'll show you the beautiful furniture we built yesterday as soon as I get my camera rolling.

It is hard to work backward when time moves forward

So I feel no good today. I suppose that's normal when you start off an hour conversation with the person you love about how much you need to move on. Truth is, I don't want to move on. I've always been capable of moving on pretty speedily but for some reason, I can't kick these feelings. I haven't waivered from loving him...but he gave up the second I got on the plane and that hurts. A lot.

I have to try and make things before I spiral into complete and utter misery. I can't change it now. All I can do is move forward and pray that time will reveal to me truths. I hate myself for never letting me see the whole truth, I only ever wait to see the half truth and then I develop the rest of it with my own thoughts. I need to stop doing that. It gets me into trouble.

I do have some ridiculously good news, though. Lisa is coming today! She called me yesterday to let me know she booked a ticket to come see me for the weekend and I am bursting with excitement. It will feel so incredible to have a friend here...it will make me feel at home. I will definitely be taking lots and lots of pictures of our adventures throughout the weekend and make them available to you ASAP. Along with some glorious shots of my house.

Time to work. Time to move forward. Time to breathe. Time to live.

Sunny days, sweeping the clouds away

Sunshine today. Beautiful blue skies over Lake Washington with snow capped Olympic mountains in the distance set the scene for my day this morning. Such an incredible view and everyone in my office just walked by it. They've all seen it before. No need to look again. Doesn't matter that it hasn't been sunny in a freaking week. They keep telling me...."just wait, Jessica...when May comes...sunshine ALL the time." Well that may be so, but I'm going to keep on my IKEA sunboxes anyway.

Work is going pretty well. I realized I haven't really talked much about it. I actually enjoy my job. Lots of benefits, the company is wonderful, people are willing to help and they're keeping me busy.

Last night I went to visit the Alpha Xi chapter here. They're great girls. I got along with the alums and I'm looking forward to building the "sisterly" bond in the future. There house is so beautiful. So warm and inviting. Check out the house http://www.alphaxidelta-nu.com/dnn/ . Pretty precious, huh?

I will write more about life in awhile. I have to run to see a premiere of "The Host" with Kenny. I have free tickets, good times. http://www.hostmovie.com/ Let ya know how it goes.

New house, new life

It's all coming together. One day at a time. Friday night I just hung out at home with Clanci (Chris' roommate) and the dogs and went to sleep pretty early. The work week seemed to get to me...or exhaust me anyway.

Saturday I woke up farely early and spoke with Brian about our relationship plan. Plan is...there isn't one. We're just going to let what happens happens I suppose and feel it out as it comes along. One thing is certain, I miss him a lot. If I'm meant to head back that way and be with him, I guess I will. Time tells all. It just sucks a lot to watch it tick by.

Rest of the day Saturday was spent moving. I moved into the new cute house and my roommates keep to themselves for the most part which is alright. I think I can face the solitude rather cheerfully with my new Seattle Public Library card. Seattle Public Library = rock star awesomness...check it out and be jealous http://www.spl.org/ . Good times had by all.

I went with Travis and Kenny around Seattle looking for bits and pieces to get my room to have a more homey feel. I got some new sheets, some beautiful IKEA lamps and a huge rug and some other non-essentials that make the whole room more fun. I went out that night with Clanci and Shuley to play darts at the Irish Emigrant (a total sketch bar in the U-District) which was fun. Mostly because I won. Those Peace Corps girls are so freaking sweet though its out of control. I definitely had a good time, though.

Yesterday I went to St. James Cathedral for mass with Kenny which was very..well I guess pretty. The cathedral is huge and goregous and I signed up for an opportunity to teach ESL which will be nice to start giving back to my community that I'm living in. I think that's an important part of feeling connected to where you live. Yay.

I went to Costco yesterday and bought a ridiculous amount of veggie burgers and other bulk items which should tie me over for about a month. But that's good because I don't get paid for awhile. :)

I spent last night out with a guy named Josh and he took me to dinner and a movie which was fun. We went to a restaurant called Bamboo Garden and then saw Zodiac, probably the worst movie ever. So painfully long. I wanted to jab my eyes out. I didn't though, so don't worry.

Tonight I have an Alpha Xi Delta Alumnae event and I'll send word tomorrow as to how that goes, but I'm looking forward to hanging out with some sisters.

That's all for now.

Feel bad until you feel better.

Feel bad until you feel better. That's what my mom always tells me. Today I feel bad....but I will feel better. When, I don't know.

Last night was alright, I went out with the some friends. We went to watch the WSU game and I'm not sure but Cougs might be more intense than the Crimson Tide....nah, not possible.

I don't know why I feel bad... I just can't kick it. Work has been slammed today so I haven't had much time to really think about it...but it's still creeping through me. Silly emotions.

Moving tomorrow, I'm going to try to take pictures this weekend of the new house and post them...keep things exciting....So far I only have one picture in Seattle. That is an Indian rhinestone on my forehead that my friend Chirag gave me in case you're curious.

Eh...I don't feel like talking anymore. Post more on Monday.

New Gig

I am here. Here in Seattle. Just moved to the West Coast from good ol' Alabama and it definitely is a change. People keep saying to me

Wow Alabama girl, big change. Why?.....

or

Moment of insanity? Have friends here?


Okay, no, I don't have friends here...well I do now, a few. And no, I'm not insane..at least not yet.

It has however been a big change. Big transition, but I'm pretty resilient and looking forward to a new day. Leaving home was hard. Leaving friends, family and a boyfriend for something unknown.

Life has become a close up Monet, I can't really make anything out right now but everyday I'm stepping further and further back to make out the big picture. I'll keep you all updated as things take place.


Why the move? Job. I graduated in December with a degree in public relations. Thought the best way to get a grasp on the world and/or myself was to move far away and try to figure everything out on my own. So that's what I've done.

It has been rough. It has been a battle of emotions but I'm trying to think about how wonderful this will be once I do see the whole Monet...not just a bunch of splotches of paint.

Keep you updated...keep reading.